Sitting, Waiting, Wishing...

Wishing and hoping and thinking and praying, planning and dreaming....

...Which is why I am writing this blog post! Still no Avery!! I know her due date is still 3 days away AND most first babies are born the week following their due date or even the next, but I am still as impatient as ever. This time has definitely been the hardest part of my pregnancy...but I think that is for a reason. I feel amazing, but anyone that knows me well, knows that I have always been quite an impatient person in many aspects of life.

I strongly feel that this time is God's way of teaching me just a little bit more about patience and trust before I embark upon motherhood. After all, if pregnancy isn't one of the greatest examples of HIS timing- I don't know what is!! During these past 9-10 months, I have had to graciously learn how to relinquish all control. And that has NOT been easy for me. Throughout pregnancy, I felt that the only things I was able to have any control over were my health and my daily eating habits. Knowing that there is a little tiny person growing inside my body over which I had little control, was a hard concept for me grasp that I struggled with a lot. But through all of this, I have realized that this is the true miracle of pregnancy!

Everyday Jason and I are constantly in awe of the grand Designer. It is truly an unfathomable thought how He can take a few tiny little molecules and in 10 months, execute everything flawlessly according to His plan, to design the most perfect little person. Pregnancy has by far been the biggest event in my life to date- and I think it is awesome how I have had to totally trust and rely upon God to execute his perfect plan with almost all of it out of my control. It has been an amazing lesson in trust and sole reliance on Christ. It is incomprehensible to me how a woman can go through pregnancy and still not believe in God. Pregnancy is truly an unexplainable miracle that only God can make possible through His amazing and perfect design.

I am having to consistently remind myself that this time of waiting for her arrival is just the same. It is not my timing, but His. He knows exactly when she will be ready to come- and that time will be perfect. No matter what I do to try to speed things up- going for nightly walks, eating pineapple, bouncing on my yoga ball, eating eggplant parm, making labor cake, etc- it is STILL not up to me =) Yes, I am guilty of doing all of these things and more, but in the end I am learning an invaluable lesson of patience and trust in God's perfect timing.

Avery will be here when she is good and ready, but even more so when He is good and ready. And who can argue with His perfect timing?? Regardless of when and how she comes, Jason and I could not be more ready to meet her and welcome her into this world with so much love and happiness!! Thank you all so much for your prayers and thoughts during this time- keep them coming =) We can't wait to let everyone know when little Avery Reagan makes her grand entrance into this world in perfect timing!

"Be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead!" (I Peter 1:6)

“Be still, and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10)

"I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in Him will I trust." (Psalm 91:2)

"Stand still and consider the wondrous works of God." (Job 37:14)

"I will give you peace and quietness." (I Chronicles 16:11)

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." (Philippians 4:6)

"Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust Him, and He will help you. Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently for Him to act." (Psalm 37: 5,7)